May 24, 2007

Haven't figured out a way to visually/verbally combine the Mickey and the gnovel yet but I'm wrestling with it. For now I'll turn this space into autobio space and just see what happens. If you've just walked in you need to go backwards to catch up with what's been going on.

May 20, 2007


A thought came to me in Bristol, maybe in the hotel room, maybe at the comics convention:
the Burial of Mickey Mouse and the gnovel are not two separate projects.
This felt like a revelation, a Eureka moment.

Yesss! I will put those separate ways of thinking/drawing/writing into one big bowl, add generous amounts of time, blood, sweat, obsession, imagination, spontaneity and concentration, mix thoroughly and come up with Something Completely Different And Amazingly Wondrous.This thought was the kind you can't argue with. You know it's right because it's so obvious. What you don't know is how the hell you'll get over there from over here. It's a vision of something in the future but...and this is the infernally buzzing fly in the delightful will only exist in the future if you yourself put it there. Blindingly obvious innit? Yes but. If distraction happens to be your middle name and getting off the track is your speciality, the Eureka quickly turns into full scale panic-alert and inner wrestling match.
It's too much, you can't do it.
Shut up, I will do it.
You'll lose the good stuff you've got if you try to mix it all.
I'll find a way, it'll come to me.
It'll take ages. You won't be able to stick to it.
Bugger off, I will stick to it. I want to do it.
It'll be a mishmash.
It'll be great.

And on and on. So I'm wondering:
how to trick myself into NOT seeing a divison where currently I see a division?
I've put physical and verbal barriers between me and me, haven't I?
Over here is Augustine's space, over there is Natalie's space.
It's right up there as a header for God's sake:
I am an alter ego and this is my blog. The ego who tries to alter me is Natalie.
Cute concept but is it helpful?
Probably not.
Well. H'm.
What if I were to cut a hole into this page, a connecting door?

Connecting doors 


May 31, 2007


I don't know if this belongs in the autobiography or not but it's so intriguing I had to illustrate it. This is the dream that Nathan Horowitz had about me a few days ago. We've never met in real life but have been blogging friends for a while. He's a very good writer and obviously a psychic dreamer: how could he have known that I can hold my breath for eight months at a time?

Nathan's dream

The whole dream, as written by Nathan:

I was working for you on your video autobiography. You had a studio directly underneath the Port Authority train station in New York City. Improbably, it was well-lit, with high ceilings and skylights. You had some young apprentices, while I was a freelancer who had come from outside.

I interviewed you in one room, then following your plan, we held our breath and went into another room which you had filled entirely with water. It looked just like an ordinary room, just filled with water. With a video camera recording us, we sat in chairs and mimed conversing with each other; you would dub in dialogue later.

When I swam up near the skylight to take a breath from the airspace there, I met two of your regular employees, a man and a woman, just arriving from Port Authority. The woman told me admiringly that you were able to hold your breath for up to eight months at a time.


May 17, 2007


Sales were good, people were great, weather was lousy, future looks promising, and hope - like new ideas - springs eternal.  This was my half of the table:

NdA table at Comics Expo Bristol

My table partner and buddy in Bristol was the many-sided American cartoonist/animator Eric Knisley who currently lives in the UK. Here he is, skeptically observing a robot as it fiddles with its lethal weapon. At Eric's elbow are his subversive Mickey Death T-shirts, not suitable for robots. You however can and should buy Eric's T-shirts and comics from the above links.

Star War robot and Eric

At the table on our right was Roger Langridge who was drawing non-stop, producing amazing cartoons on demand for patiently waiting customers, smooth pristine black lines flowing from his pen with never a moment's hesitation.

Roger Langridge drawing.

I, for whom hesitation is almost a matter of principle (if you don't like it I have others) looked on in awe. Below are some of the sketches I did while watching people milling about. I'm always wondering: should I draw with line only or add shading too? Do I stop now or keep going? Do I want to draw what I see or make it up? Abstract or figurative? 2-D or 3-D? Pen or pencil or brush? Colour or black & white? Words or no words? Frames or no frames? Choices, choices! The story of my life.

Som of my sketches in Bristol

UPDATE 14 May 2009-  I have today removed my drawing "Emerging Idea - Hesitation" (originally posted here in May 7, 2007) since it was being used without permission, in breach of copyright, by YANDEX, a Russian website.

The prestigious, world-famous, brilliant and really really sympathique cartoonist, Hunt Emerson came by to say hello, bought a copy of The God Interviews and said he liked it. What more can I say?

Hunt Emerson


May 10, 2007


Tomorrow, for the weekend. Networking and selling ourselves - well the God Interviews anyway. Full report later. Next week there'll definitely be a new episode of the autobio, she says. 

Meanwhile here's something from our sketchbook, drawn at another comics event recently.

Cartoonists at the cartoon museum


May 8, 2007



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May 1 , 2007

I'm trying out this new format of just one post per page and storing the preceding one in a new section of the archive. I was hoping to post every day to get to grips with this de-mluttering task but have been too busy and/or disorganised to do so. But keep checking because the story is not finished.

In a post on March 13 about the Jonathan Cape graphic novel event in Bath, I mentioned that I met Simone Lia , who was on the panel talking about her book Fluffy. We have kept in touch and went to an exhibition together last week. I was struck once again by the way that this artist/author and the characters she created in that book appear to be one. If you haven't yet discovered this very original and touching graphic novel, you're missing a unique experience.